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| I suddenly remembered I have a xanga account and was seeing if it was stll around! LOL... so...if anyone actually reads this, Merry Christmas to you! Happy New Year! | | |
| Well, My Aunt has a fever of 107 right now. For the past several days, she went downhill from what I am understanding miles away. She has not been breathing on her own for quite some time, and she is no longer responding or becoming alert anymore. My mom just called to say that they are most likely moving her to a private room tonight where everyone can sit with her until she passes...taking her off machines, etc.. So, after fighting for some time, it looks like she has let go, and we need to let her go. I just wanted to let you know. Thanks to everyone who has been praying for our family. | | |
| So, my aunt is no longer in ICU, but honestly, I am really not sure what that means for her. There doesnt seem to be any change as of yet, so we are still playing the waiting game. It is hard b/c the neurologists did say that in order for anyone to have any idea on how/if her brain will recover, we have to wait at least 3-4 weeks to really know anything as far as that is concerned. I think I mentioned that in a previous post. So, anyhow...thats where we are on that at this point. My mom sounds a little better, but I really don't know how she is truly feeling.....and last we asked, she had been sneaking cigarettes here and there, so I give up. That is something I will never understand about my mother. I know smoking is addictive, and I know how hard it is to quit. What I can't comprehend is how anyone couldn't find the strength somehow to just quit when the doctor flat out tells you that you are going to die within little time if you do not quit! I do not, not , not understand! I don't think I ever will. If anything, I guess it is all just extra proof (as if we needed any) on how addictive nicotine really is. There are people like my mom all over this world... geez....I'm surprised cigarettes are not illegal! I am NOT trying to start a debate with anyone, so please don't send me comments arguing about why cigarettes should never be illegal. I am simply venting my frustration. As far as I am concerned, I hate the things. They took my grandmother from me way too early in life, and I am afraid I will be facing the same thing with my mother since she will not take control of her life!! I HATE IT! I used to smoke many, many years ago, and I am so glad that I changed that habbit...and watching my mom go through what she goes through every day....it's just heartbreaking! Well, enough of that. Thanks for letting me vent! My dad went for his 3- 31/2 hour stress test this morning, so I am waiting to hear how that goes as well. In case you didnt know, the day we moved here- literally, the day we got here...he was in the hospital with surgery on his heart. He had stints put in or something like that...he was supposed to do this non stress thing a long time ago, so it is about time he gets it done. Let's see...what else... Kenzie was dry again this morning! Woo-hoo! This is just so exciting in our house at the moment! Other than that, I have just been working on school work in addition to the usual daily life stuff I do. Someone is supposed to come look at our dishwasher today, so that's how exciting things are here. :) well...check back later..thats all folks!!! | | |
| Well... After more opinions on my aunt's condition, it appears they will be waiting 3-4 weeks to see if there is possibility for improvement as far as her brain is concerned. I guess with the severity of the injury, it is too soon to judge on the possibilities of brain recovery or something like that. I will keep it that brief, b/c I feel like we are on an emotional roller coaster with this. Some days seem better than others, and we just have to wait. I try to remain optimistic remembering what happened to my brother when he was 16, but then, I don't want to get my hopes up and have them completely shattered either. But, thats where we are now. It has rained all week, and I am so over it! Tomorrow is supposed to be sunny and in the 50's....I really hope that doesnt change.! Plus, Duane is off, so it will be nice to spend the day together after church for the 1st time in a while! Hope all is well. Later! | | |
| My aunt had taken many steps in what appeared could be a good direction. It's so hard to be far away and hear only from nurses, doctors, and friends. When you cannot see for yourself, it is harder to accept or understand, and when it is a family member, you just don't want to believe it. I just talked to my mom and she had been talking to my aunt's medical proxy. (who is one of Janny's closest friends she's known most her life...) It looks as though Janny is no longer responding to anything really, and if she does stay alive, she won't be able to do anything at all. The doctor says a decision needs to be made tomorrow or Friday about taking this breathing tube out. My aunt was not someone who would have wanted to live off machinces, especially with all that happened to her own mother. (my grandmother) So, that being said, it is no longer looking good at all. I was holding on thinking if a miracle was going to happen, it would surely happen for her, but maybe that's not supposed to be happening. Still- I was looking so forward to seeing her in a few short months, and I am still just in shock over all of it. I wish I could be there- if nothing more than to say in her presence that I love her and will miss her and appreciate all of her love towards me my entire life. I would have never expected to lose her so early in life, and it's going to be a hard reality to face- especially from afar. So, I really do not know what else to write. With this and my om being sick and my classes started yesterday, I have too much on my mind. I am going to work in a few minutes, and I am truly looking forward to it. For the few short hours I am there, I stay pretty busy and don't have much time to think about anything but those kids! They keep me laughing and on my toes, thats for sure! Today, I am extremely greatful for that- even in the short drive through the snow and ice! LOL... I cant believe this weather. Anyways- I'll keep you posted, but it doesnt look good. With love, Em | | |
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